taken advantage of

that's how i'm feeling.

i feel in a difficult and in-limbo sort-of place right now. knowing that someone's intentions are usually pretty good makes me feel a little better, but when it gets to the point that responsibility and honesty don't seem to weigh very heavily to the other...it puts the relationship in jeopardy. i'm just very frustrated and am probably going to be distrusting from now on. i refuse to back down, but at the same time, i can't be a bitch and i can't necessarily crack the whip on current impossibilities.

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i probably shouldn't always expect as much out of people as i do, because people kinda suck, but what the hell.


even though i hate kanye west, i haven't been able to get his new song "love lockdown" out of my head since the VMA's (which were lame) on monday. watch his performance of the song here.